... i wish to fly away from here ...

Tribu/ta/ekwondo

Monday, May 28, 2007

One and a half. Time galloped. Sped past. Our term is now over.

To the new EXCO as well as all jnrs, g'luck for all your competitions and trainings ahead. Always remember that EXCO member or not, you have your part to play in the development of the club. Being a member does not render you powerless. NEVER forget that you progress AS A CLUB, not individually. :)

(Below lies my lame tkd life story. The more important message is the one above :)

Usually, came to training not only for the "roughin" up but for the company as well. Though we may not get to train as a whole j2 clan anymore, that sense of belonging still lingers.

I enrolled into tkd at a tender age of 14, brimming with passion. To confess, my passion died down after I obtained my black in January, 2006. Trainings were a drag, the fuel had died down, flames of passion extinguished. I had no sense of direction, no goals. From a psychological perspective, I was shrivelled like a prune.

Mid-yr I ran for EXCO, something which I found worth fighting for. Mind you, I was slogging it out for the post, not for the sport. My ardor for the post was insufficient to rekindle tt passion i once had. Then came the hand-over day. To blurt out bluntly, I got whipped. I did not, or rather failed to execute the skills that I had attained over the course of 2years. I was down but not out and i resent the fact that this trashing had not occured earlier. From then, I knew what I had to do. New goals, new meaning to my life.

Then came the eoy holidays, the time during which the club really bonded. It was during the course of Open House preparations that strong bonds were forged. I made new buddies, borne indelible memories. It was the defeat as well as these comrades that refueled my burning desire for the art.

The moral here, being that friends are ALWAYS important to keep you in the game. A rather trite remark but from experience, I gaurantee its complete authenticity.

bid goodbye and fly away... 2:29 AM

Incoherency

Monday, May 21, 2007

Abhor bastard reporters who sensationalize stories just to boost viewership. Pity the dad who, appallingly, had to beg for the victim's forgiveness. Laments at the pea brained kid who lacks self control, though sympathetic because his life is probably in shambles right now.

Hmm exco interviews on Sat was fairly rewarding..hmmm okay a weird expression to use but yea kinda amazed at how competant the exco runners are this year. We're really spoilt for choice. Big dilemma...

Anyway shout out to liwen. Hope your leg heals asap!! And nxt time pao3 bu4 xiao3 xin yi dian leeh.... :) The incident that day made me realise how important it was for one to know First Aid and it was really uncanny how a FA class was going on DIRECTLY BELOW the scene of the accident. Real lucky! Or else we might have been stranded there for hours with her writhing in pain or something. :( Okay super random.

To joon. DEEE-LAAAI-LAAAAHHH ;)
TKD ROX.

bid goodbye and fly away... 9:49 PM

Untitled

Sunday, May 13, 2007

p.s when you are damn frickin' tired and have no clue of a fitting title, just name it "untitled".

Spent over 12hrs (yes wtfck) at bedok sports hall. Seriously 98% of the time = waiting, fooling arnd, malaysian joking etc. Our moments of glory lasted no more than 1min on the mats, clearly accentuating upon e phrase (which joon mentioned earlier on sat) tai shang yi fen zhong, tai xia shi nian gong. Ok this prob doesn't really fit in the context but yea...nvm...Oh did i mention contestants had to face off with not one, not two, not EVEN three, BUT SEVEN judges!? yea...results were fantastic for both juniors and seniors. I won't really touch on the issue of fairness because i think in every comp there's definitely bound to be some form of bias demonstrated but overall, i feel that the comp this yr was fairly fair (hoho...compared to the previous yrs, this here comp seems to be the very epitome of impartialism) Okay i shan't dwell on the unfairness/fairness part lest i want *jc ppl knocking on my door asking me for some public apology...

How WE ALL wish it were SPARRING and not pattern comp instead. Seriously, things would be much different. Notice i never announced any definite results. Well, you'll just have to wait for our morning announcement on e bridge if ur interested. Whatever the case, I'd say this was an enriching experience in a way...i guess. Did i mention, a CERTAIN coach from a CERTAIN jc requested for a combined sPArring camp with our coach, Mr Guna? THanks for the free moving live targets. You're gonna need all the bandages and deep heat sprays you can get your crummy lil' paws on.

A shout out to all tkd-ian competitors : For those who achieved exemplary results, grats! For those who achieved less than they shld have, don't give up becuz from this wk onward IT'S S****ING MANIA BABY! As i had mentioned umpteenth times, you guys have rellie showed gr8 dedication and fortitude this time round, really(!), compared to e previous yr. Rellie proud of every tkd-ian and frankly spking I, as well as e seniors, believe tt the j1's this yr could very well tip the winning scale toward our end in the nxt patterns comp. Cheers!

bid goodbye and fly away... 9:50 PM

Pre-meditation Prose

Saturday, May 12, 2007

My title doesn't even make sense. Just a random word i cooked up. exactly 9hrs before the start of the comp. Here i am er..."meditating", trying to sync my bio rhythm with my pattern movements. I know previously there was all this hype about winning and thrashing *JC but now that i think of it...winning doesnt really seem to be the main deal of this lil cherade anymore.

OKKk I know I'm biting my own tongue but really, my eyes were probably clouded by the desire to win (who doesn't want to?) but now i realise there's more to winning. It's all those times, the bonding and the interaction between team mates, club mates during e intensive trainings that really matter.

Forlorn, bereft of love and the senses five. I defintely have not made a lackadasical attempt to reach that medal, though, now hours before the comp i feel that i have lost all hope to win. I just wanna get this over and done with. Hmm...even so, for my team m8s whom i have suffered with, I shall relinquish tt fury passion and burning desire after a gd night's slp.
Once again, i find myself not making ANY SENSE at all. Pray for e best and a BIGBIG thankew to those who have encouraged and wished me. You guys/gals rock big time man :) oh btw SHALL UPLOAD PIX OF COMP

p.s like omg la notice the tone, mood and writing style of my blog from start to end. ZERO consistency la..I shall learn to be emo THROUghOUT like shenny and not have a tidal wave of emotions :P then again maybe not. :PP

bid goodbye and fly away... 11:58 PM

The Final Countdown

Friday, May 11, 2007

1 more day and counting. 14 exponents in blackbelt individual. 13 exponents I have to thrash. Under such circumstances even the thought of obtaining a medal remains elusive. It's gonna be one heck of a fight, the pressure insurmountable. No matter, I shall try

Just back from training. Practically dragging my weary fingers across the keyboard. I'm tired. We're all tired. Only a day to The comp, a testiment to our abilities we worked so hard to obtain. I'd like to lie to myself by saying, "At least I've done my best" if by any chance i suffered a downstroke" of luck and missed the medal. I ain't there for experience or to "try my best", I'm there to win. I want to win. Not for anyone else anymore but for myself. Lol sry my writings are incoherant cuz' my thoughts are mumbo jumbo-ed...

...Upon those roseate lips, a stygian hue. Please let it pass.....let me hit that 100% asap...

bid goodbye and fly away... 11:52 PM

Doppel

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Tagged not.

96% and still counting.

Tmrw, tkd-ians, we chow down upon supreme delights.

A tribute to our Sunday fight.

Drowning away my sorrows.

I lament, hoping for a better tomorrow.

Only 4% till solace and release from these shackles that bind.

Can't wait.

Let's do it.

(Tried my hand at joon's style of blogging..hohoho...seems like quite a failure...oh joon just how do you do it..=P)

bid goodbye and fly away... 8:53 PM

All Endings Are Beginnings..

Monday, May 7, 2007

but what if there was neither a start, nor a finishing line to begin with? Ok no sense but aptly depicts the mood I'm feeling right now. The one where you find yourself pacing in circles, lamenting about what you have or have not, shld or shld not have done, momentarily shackled to an uninterpretable(o.o) conundrum. I need to have more frickin' guts.

Oh btw realised prev few entries were chocked full of tkd elements lol SRY LA....tkd's kinda the biggest thing tts going on in my life right now. Have never felt the urge to win so much. YES PATTERNS THE URGE TO WIN....P-A-T-T-E-R-N-S. I guess its a matter of pride, honor, ego? I don't know, I/We just know its our last comp and we ain't gonna leave tkd with nothing but overrated, "experience". The strands of time grow shorter and the competition nears..merely 6 more days away, and i can already feel that oh so familiar adrenaline rush and queasiness, that gushed upon me during my first white belt grading... -reminisces- Today's training kinda fruitful i guess. Though, the sweltering heat kinda made everyone schizo haix. Hopefulli tmr mama weather will shine upon us (i meant it figuratively la...-_-)
Not to forget, THE NEW BUDO SAND BAG R-O-X-X-O-R. I kick until daaaamn shuang (even tho sustained some minor abrations but no pain no gain rite? Muay thai-ers kick banana trees a 1000 times a day u know?)

OH OKAY NICE ONE I LOVE ECONS DEPARTMENT. PLEASE CHANGE THE ECONS LEC TEST TO NEXT MONDAY WOW THANKS. 3 TESTS IN ONE DAY. OH OH WAIT DID I MENTION I HAVE COMP ON SUN? WOW TOUGH LUCK...OF ALLLLL DAYS IN THIS ****ING TERM. LOVE U GUYS. YOU PUT THE R IN RAINBOW intoo MY LIFE.
!@#$%^!@#$%^@#$%^&*())()*(&&^*%^&%$%##!

p.s WOW THX P***lA FOR READING MY BLOG!! (tag pls tag pls i want to be pop-u-lar but dun tag anything suggestive hor...) but dun niaaao me liao if not i cry. I'm a sensitive metro u know (ya right) and i have FRAgile feelings as well as shaky mood swings(double YA RIGHT).

bid goodbye and fly away... 8:53 PM

Bloody Sunday..

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Mock grading for team and pair poomsae's on fri. Really disappointed with the results. Well we deserved it. We didn't train as hard as we thought we had.

Ironically, kinda greatful for the mock grading as well as the crummy results. It was an excellent wake up call. One tt all three of us desperately needed. With the final battle merely a wk away. Though time may be running short, it is still ample. Ample enough for us to rise from the ashes, ample enough to grasp those medals, ample enough for us to land a crushing defeat on those other jcs. We may have been down and out for a split moment on tt unfateful friday but that has only made us more resilient, more determined. Winning isn't an option, it's a necessity. We'll gladly spill our guts, blood, sweat and tears for this sh*t. Jia you, joon, yewshoee and ahde(the malaysian ha2), as well as all the competitors of hctkd. You guys have showed vast improvement since the day we made the intrepid ascent, on an arduous journey toward tt ever elusive gold. Yay to all of you guys =) We cannot allow a bloody sunday,a massacre of our spirits, a damper to our morale.

Anyway had a really fulfilling dinner (on THAT unfateful friday) at forture down e road toward KAP. Yea the food was sumptuous and cheap, the perfect combo in any culinary delight. Lala. There was a weird upsurge of desire for camwhoring tt day/night. Shenny's team had to take an asTOUnding number of 50+ pix, of them kicking and posing, possibly to simmer their er.....CArnal (hmm....) desires (poor yichun's cam..=(. Shall upload some of e pix to my frenster asap ( ok not ASAp la..juz soon =P )

Okay sry for tt hint of emo-ness (ok fine, not hint ..FLOOD OF EMO-NESS, OK!?) in e previous part. But seriously you cannot imagine how disastrous our results were man. OHOH shocking la, ytd (sat) we had this nifty sparring session after hrs of tedious pattern trning( eh yah doing patterns even with 50% power can zonk you out lor..dun underestimate the draining prowess of patterns..). Yea i damn gg, i remained king for 2 rnds. during e third match, i was desperately in need of more stamina..score was on 2-2. One more point for either sparrer to get tapped in or out. Yea i sian-ded so i juz stepped out of e ring ( equals one pt to contender). OMG MUST BRUSH UP MY STAMINA LA if not dan2 grading sure kena pwnt (ps. THREE RNDS OF SPARRING LEH WT@#$%^&). oKAy tt isnt the main point. The thing is some canadian dude from NOWHERE, studying OVERSEAS juz popped by (apparently he was xiaojun's psch classm8). Profile : Canadian patterns STATE CHAMP. Dan II. Part of ITF.
Yea not rellie gonna dwell on the events which ensued la. But lets jut say he was polite and rellie weird cuz he juz popped out randomly. Jiawei you !@#$%^#$%^ why when we need u the most to spar, u in your hostel snoozing? !@#$%!@#$ @#$%^ #$%^&*

p.s (joon) : eh tHX JOOOON for doing THAT LAME thing laaa ...now everything so embarrassing liao lor.....WA liew eh....gg la..i must meet u on the mats asap liao. seriously muz TAKE YOU IN HAND, BABE. ;) oh and austuni....-shakes fists-

bid goodbye and fly away... 3:47 PM